So much is happening, so many things to think about and organize, focussing on writing my second book has been hard. It’s tough enough as it is, finding time during regular day job days, but even on my days off I have been distracted lately. Every morning, I get up with the best intentions, but then stuff needs to be done, I think, overthink, and get angry at myself for not being able to do it all, not being stronger. I lie awake at night, dreaming and plotting. When I wake up my thoughts are already racing, months ahead of the present…
I miss my wife who is working on a cruise ship on the other side of the world. When she is with me, I am truly home. It seems writing and creating is something I do best when the words flow from a source of deep happiness and belonging.
I miss you so much my love.
I tell myself to get a grip, take things one fish at a time, be disciplined, concentrate, and keep on writing no matter what. Only to put so much pressure on myself that it again becomes almost impossible to focus on the task at hand. I need to find a balance between letting go and being dedicated to my dream. I need to relax and trust myself. Trust that I will finish this book, even if not within the time frame I have set for myself… because art is not an emergency… and life happens.
Better to write well and take all the time I need, instead of writing obsessively fast, ending up with something I know I could have done better. Still, today, after pouring my heart out to you all, I will take a shot at chapter nine of seventeen…
I really enjoyed that line, “art is not an emergency.” Good writing takes time…and I can relate to not the time or motivation to sit down and work. Thanks for sharing!
You’re very welcome Kristina! I always need to calm myself down. My need to write gets so obsessive, but then there is the rest of life that needs my attention, too… 🙂
Try and set aside a time to just do nothing. a special Me time. It does not need to be extensive, even ten minutes a day is better than nothing. A time deliberately allotted as a period when you kick your shoes off, put your feet up and chill. Give one of your gorgeous cats a cuddle, just relax, dump the stress and negativity. Make it a daily routine. Thinking of you Liam, hang in there.
I am usually doing this but currently very hard to do since we are organising and planning a lot of stuff and my mind is constantly busy with practical things that need to be done and keep me from focussing on being creative… x